best of ’09: new person

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new people.

hmm, thought i.

it’s funny, people think i’m really outgoing.

and i guess i am, to an extent.

but i’m one of those people who’s much MORE outgoing once you get to know me.

i don’t like crowds.

ESPECIALLY crowds of people i don’t know that well or have never met.

euuyuck.

and honestly, it’s something i need to work on in therapy.

note to self: get therapy/therapist.

i think it stems from some sort of issues i have from being the little chubby girl in class.

i think i am subconsciously worried that no one will like me.

um. yeah. was kind of hoping to have grown out of that by now.

so. segue.

there’s this thing in vegas next year, that you may have heard of — a little bloggy get together.

i tried to convince ash to go with me so i’d have someone there that i knew. a security blanket.

no dice.

some song and dance about her first wedding anniversary, blah blah blah.

courtney! i thought. she looooves meet ups.

nope.

two friends getting married.

i know all about that. it’s spendy.

so i guess my un-sung heroes (or heroines, in this case) are the wonderful ladies who are trying their best to convince me to bite the bullet and throw myself into a room full of strangers/best friends for life, like rachel and wishy.

my favorite was the email from wishy: You’re coming to the Bloggy Vegas thingamajiggy, riiiiiight?

to that i say, i don’t know yet. but it means the world to me to be asked.